Friday, July 14, 2006 Today went there very earlier......7 30 must do 1st parade le...then fall in lo had a informal kinda 1st parada then left...hmm guess nth much ba sit in office waiting for my upper study to come....then went breakfast with wai man ( A senior there) then later finish breakfast liao go back offce lo....sit sit look around....hmm nth much also....just see them around lo wait until about later on they were dicussing about dispatching something to HSA then to MINDEF....hmm so wai man ask me to fall out from there means i go home from there since its a friday no need to stay in camp tonite....so send all the stuff over lo..with srg ong we send the things over....hmm okay ba nth much also after sending the things we went to HSA then i fall out from there went home from there lo.....took NEL to kovan then walk home bath awhile then rest awhile...
At nite went out with jie jie to heartland mall eat dinner......hmmm eat nasi lemark jie jie die die also wann eat then eat with her lo....after that went to heartland mall to shop around for ah mei rachel's gift....aiya dont know wat to buy also then nvm lo anyhow pick something ba.....then jie say wann go compass point......=/ go there got things to buy meh? i asked ......she also die die wann go there......so go lo.....went there walk around also got nth de fuck up place so just anyhow see things lo anyway there also nth to buy de....then ah jie say downstairs got some bag shop n all so go there pick something thats okay lo then bought it.....tired day would say ba....keep coughing when i was walking around....weird neh not at tekong still got the cough...args....stupid..aiya dont care la cough also wont die de....just abit sickening la......
whats there left.....leaving with sufferings, pain n tears......fading life.....fading will.......everything seems just so dark....so dark that no road is ahead.......smoking through the way of life smoking through everything thats coming....good things just aint in the way......grow weaker each damm day....feel like just taking a knief cutting through my heart and change it cutting through my brains change it .....or perhaps cutting through my wrist to change my life.....
