Monday, May 15, 2006 Went back to sch for meeting today ....erm....this little gal of mine started crying after the meeting lolx sry for making you cry jocelyn.... :P hmm...back to blog abit more of things ba.....Didnt online for a day...didnt wanted come online cause i know i would chat....i'll read everyones blog....i will see ppl's nick.....that will make me tear...make me sad.....it did when i come online this after....i saw everyone's post...i guess eric's post make me cried........realli cant help it......i told myself i shouldnt come online...shouldnt at all couldnt control alot of things became very emotional this few days......i though i can do a gd job ...not caring not thinking so much....i couldn't....i still came online....i still check everyone entries...felt so hard to leave things...i dont know i told myself i wont care so much....the more i say i dont care i more i cared...why izzit like that *teared* realli so hard to control...i realli tried my best liao.......a feeling that i can hardly do anything to it........dont wan come online cause i dont wann teared ....realli sad about it....i know i have the aura to make ppl tears...thats y i choose not to go online.....not to chat not to read ppl blog...not to meet all of you....sorry.....i just dont wan to make anyone cry....dont wann make anyone sad as well...abit selfish but ya dont wann let anyone cry...for your own gd :)........What if you get dont the see a person anymore??? Will you miss them ??? certainly the answer is "Yes"...So different from life in sec sch....i know i still get to meet them...for all my poly friends things just feel so diff this time...might meet might not meet you all anymore we wouldn't know...just too many things going through my head...y i bothered so much y i care so much.....i dont know just a feeling ba...its hard not to miss anyone now its hard to not tear about those who are leaving..Know alot of you cant control alot feelings out there take care n rest well okay...dont hold back things too much...cause once you break down thats it .........try to let it off bit by bit k.....take care everybody....hope all of you will enjoy this few wks a 1 - 2 wks with those we are leaving...realli wish that all of you are happy smiling the next time i go back sch.................take care everyone hAo XiAnG Ni -hAvE FaItH In YoUrSelF-
