Monday, April 03, 2006
woke up kinda early i would say not realli slping for 2 full days....wast just having activities around n ya...perhaps times were fast ba many things to be done n was done this few days....went out with alot of ppl attending INTSC activities and going out with my sec sch friends ....yap yap maybe can start talking about wat happened on sat ba...went bball in the afternoon then later pool after which walk around bishan with travis then later at nite >>>..me nelson travis blah blah went to prata....was speaking about many many things perhap some are not reviewable ba hehe......was chating on NS n there it goes my NS letter is here nv say anything about my pess then send me a better ready........Oh man going in 8/6......dont know had alot of feelings that nite then later when home reach home pretty late ba so didnt slp cause got to wake very early in the morning tml....so was buffering anime whole nite on u tube watching it then later rest awhile then watch until morning....
.went sch in the morning .....reach le then know i m the data entry in charge....have alot of things to take charge........so sian ......so ya was instruction ppl around......very soon everything ended quite smooth ba i would say hmm okay lo quite gd....so ya ended everything then later we went off le go tampines talk about some wk zero things hmm went off later go home pack things later going to chalet again......omg got so many things to pack then later ask papa fetch me there but raining so had to pack for quite sometime....so later went to carel chalet le....had quite a number of fun there ba with them....mostly all young ba then me ...onli uncle elder.......then later felt quite bored cause mostly ppl there i dont know nv realli mix with de cause i nv see b4.....so bbq whole nite lo ....later on talking carel then later bbq haf way talk to mei mei cause helping her to cook prawn .....ohh she say my prawn nice nice ....cook egg for them also then we starting drinkning n chating ....drink quite abit ba this time.....coffee wine....red wine......beer.......mostly all by mi ba apart from the coffee wine....then later chating until quite late then pack up the things le clean up the place....everyone wet during the packing....all wet even me as well regardless of even having no clothes so haiz ya ...wet the whole until morning its dry......
went home in da morning then pack up my things le.......ownself walk out casue most of them inside watching tv so later on quickly go home n change to go sentosa with dear....bath ....pack things then later dear go sentosa...didnt realli play ba....tired ...seeing ppl juz having fun out there.........dont know ba a moment of time juz felt like going home straight was it too tired ??? me didnt actually know....juz know of one thing not reali in the mood this time.....guess i had many things for the past few days ba nv realli had enough rest did realli eat well...stomach was giving problems.....still i have alot of things to do .....was juz thinking along my was sitting on very small corner of sentosa having many things flowing through my head....after da whole day ended went off at habour front....didnt get to eat cause i was abit late n ya not realli in the mood to eat as well so went off alone there....then i realised nth of consumed then whole then but nvm didnt eat anything for the whole day le....not hungry also yap so sat the mrt went off after that ....
reaching home it was like 6 + n i was still shoaking wet cause kana rain ....sian come back still rain but nvm ba doesnt matter also...juz had a bath then later have to rush down to TM meet eric for the commnunit serivce thing....reach there thought i was late cause i couldnt see eric ....nope not late eric later cause had a traffic jam......after which reach there help ppl do things there like until 10 + which we were having over times there then later go home from bus stop liao.....reach home also around 11 + le dead tired this time...actually wanted to update blog in the de then ah jie using the computer watching her VCDs.....wanted to ask her go slp cause i didnt realli use the computer for 2 days then she say she wann watch finish this ep .....lazy to also quarrel with her so i juz left her with the com n went slping dont know wat time i slp also casue the lights on juz like the thoughts in my head on for quite sometime....perhaps later i was too tired ba i doze off n went to slp after that......
many things was going through my head when i was alone thinking traveling this few days on after bus back from sun ....until sentosa .....until last nite when i go home ....so tired so many things juz covering up my mind dont have time for so many things as well as so many ppl n things hav no time for me.....spending my times alone.........abit sick ...feel abit sick.....many things made me feel alone.....made me feel so left out.....made me tired .......moody........temperamental .....dont know maybe you nv notice it ba maybe you notice it but didnt know wat to do. let you have some times of your own ba shan't disturb you ...dont know....guess shouldnt blame anyone guess juz abit sick with my mood this fews days ba....have to do some self reflect..maybe not.... tired..... juz to think giving up on thinking......cant reali reach out..........
..::distance drifting apart::..
|sMaRtIe_SmArTiE| 7:54 PM|
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