Sunday, November 20, 2005
hmm... guess its been an emotional nite last nite ba....i juz dont knwo wat to say perhaps blogging some feelings out might be one of the best way of say how i feel ba if you wann know ...i dont know wheather you dont know or acting blur ......perhaps you juz dont know ba......was on outing yesterday so came back after dinner with the rest....after that came back home no sms so i started to msg you wat was said earlier on was then turn off you told me he was at your place .....wat can i say nth can juz tell you wat i have prepared emtionally has all gone down .....all seems like so impossible .....everytime an outting will juz fail everytime a planing will juz go to wastes everytime i wanted to see you it juz became imgaination.....how do you think i felt.....perhaps you juz think its okay cause you have him n you are sick.....deep in my heart i juz felt so dishearted......i juz dont wann say wat i felt so much cause i juz wann you to not think so much about things perhaps this time i wann you to know something here ba......All the time you can onli tell me sry n etc have you ever do something more then that........he juz comes in all the time when i wann be there....sometimes i m juz jealous of the status he has wat can he do ...but wat can i do ......nth much ...juz like wat you can tell me nth much you can onli LL n say sry...........
Maybe somethings i juz dont understand ba .......juz remember one thing be in my shoes n you ll know how i feel perhaps i deserves more chance ba.......

Qs......


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