Monday, October 24, 2005
hmm guess i kinda woke up super early today ba ..... reali early with mami for a walk at abt 6+ slp .....dont know not realli alot ? i have no idea i nv check the time....juz had a hard time slping ba thats while i was in the process of slping was thinking lots n lots wann blog it all out ......but nth i could realli remember perhaps onli feelings i can rem ba.Last nite can juz say i feel so .... hmm dont know how to explain..
juz like something pressing your hearts realli hard not letting you breath.....no letting you slp....i dont know wats this kinda feeling juz thinking like nth seems to be with you realli nth emptness is coming back to you making you juz feeling like life is meaningless...friends......where are they ???busy with their own things who ever realli ask ...hey are you doing fine !!! :) :( No one ..maybe some ba but i cant rememeber who was the last hahahaha.....ppl juz have the misconception that oh yea you are alway fine n happy ......thanks huh ......
i dont know ...i realli dont know juz think that no one has the time for me its alway me who has the time for others...alway the case hahahhahahhahaha i m alway free ma right...............dotz n nth but .................rememeber one case a friend ask me out for a movie n she said oh we watching this certain (movie ABC )movie okay? So i said okay lo sure no problem.......in da end bought tickets went in the movie ....then she found out hey this movie i watch with my frien loew .......n i m like wtF cause i treat ppl watch movie then not the one ppl wann watch ....so hahah wtf wtf ....... she tell me hey this is not the movie neh i thought i say (movie DEF) i m like wtf.......my mind was thinking you sms me (movie ABC) then now you say wann watch (movie DEF) ......... i m wtf wtf .... realli dont know maybe i m juz not that being remembered by friends ba......... perhaps thats how much i weight in friend's heart ba....... so important huh.....
Kinda after that day that frien on mine gave a diff view of this certain person.....appreciative ? " very "........Dont maybe all treat me the same ba cause i nv come across a frien who realli sacrifie for me haha ..... n ya realli no one actually did ...anything........ simply anything ......maybe tried ba......Dont know sometimes knw so many ppl for wat reali....none actually treat you like a real frien ........ they onli ask you out when they need something from you....hahahah yea this is FRIEND ............
HmM guess juz felt abit lonely ba .......dont know my heart juz feel so bad yesterday ..... guess maybe one of this day might get heart attack hahahaaa........ hahahaaa................dont know can anyone understand my feelings anot guess its hard ba.....imagine the whole world juz tells you they are busy with things...no one wann join you for anything....you are jet...................TAN QI SHENG you are jettttt...................=.=
Hmmm..... hmm......... hmm...........................ngng ........am i writing abit too much ... i guess nt that much as compared to yesterday nite wat i m thinking ba ........insomia ......i think somthing like that is hunting me down being thinkin 2 nites...... not realli slping rolling on da stupid bed.... like some zombie without blood ........... couldnt acutually get into the dream land gone le also awhile later up again ........INSOMIA...............................................................................................................................
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btw somemore to add on jiejie's temper ........i mean both sisters getting bad :'( i kana again sIaN SiAn..... JuZ moRniNg onli haiz..........*juz feeling hugging you at this very moment*
FeEl LoVed~
aLwAyS wItH yOu WalKiNg ThE longest rOuTe Of LifE =">
|sMaRtIe_SmArTiE| 4:12 PM|
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