Thursday, July 21, 2005
back at work today nth much ...................................was thinking about things again as usually got a conculsion about some feelings....sometimes i think in life "crying is the furthest end of joy and laugher is the furthest end of sadness" dont know who i heard from but then i starting to think about it.....humans mind is like a universal...i guess many things juz pop up in your mind all the time until you dont actually know & wan wat you are actually thinking.Sounds profound ??? guess not ba juz simple things to understand in life...everyone thinks alot perhaps its juz wat i rem n think at the moment..dont know why everytime i go home i have many many feelings i mean when i not going out with friends when i m juz thinking about going home... Thinking about things i wann do next thinking about some problems thinking friends thinking about many many more (no point listing out) some juz triggers off my mind actually perhaps too many things until i dont actually rememeber all.....have been some problems recently dont know whether this things made me stronger or more afraid of something so many things huh i also dont know wat i m thinking .....juz afraid of giving ppl that kind of trust anymore.......sometimes i juz feel sooo damm unappreciated by friends. i had quite a long conversion with a long friend yesterday we actually chat about some stuff....chat chat chat ....... we came to some common topic that we use to quarrel about........(he/she) juz give me a feeling (he/she) dont need me as a friend anymore (he/she) has grown up many ppl around (he/she) to care for (he/she) look after (he/she) i m juz a nobody to (he/she) i juz someone who (he/she) willl onli look for when (he/she) is bored maybe i dont know ? juz give me da kind of feelings ppl i love ppl i like ppl i care for start to drift further away from me ....guess at times i juz feel like this LEFT OUT in life....hate myself fer not being stronger.enough ....... ..... ...............................................................
|sMaRtIe_SmArTiE| 4:53 PM|
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