Tuesday, July 26, 2005
juz recieve a sms from a friend yesterday nite ......nice one after that sms i couldn't slp........ until about 1 + i guesss from 1130 ......thans leh really .. i find myself so unappreciated .....WtF you tell from the week b4 you leave singapore or should i say 2 weeks b4 singapore n tell me oh okay i ll meet up with ya after come back hahahahhahah ya you wanted ......thats the whole FXXKing problem you wanted but then did you make any effort ?.........thans for the call anyway when you come back ask me free anot......after the msg yesterday words start to pop up my mind guess i dont need to elaborate on wat are the content @#@#^$!#$@^@%&#&^%^$#......wtf man wtf wtf....if you dont wan or dont bother to call me out then dont fix dates with me damm it........guess you dont know that feeling of being pangseh by friends right.... dammit dammit msg of the content ~..:: hey my friend say the war of the world not nice then island he lending me the disk. So meet u for lunch or dinner some other time can. I know its not nice to keep changing ::..~ Soooo wtf then!!!! i m alway expecting a better answer then that......i m alway prepared to give in to friends all my friends but wat the fuck i get ppl telling me this kind of Fucking reasons.....i dont mind repeating the shows again i dont mind watching a lousy show but i juz simply hate it when ppl jux tell me so simply i cannot make it or i meet you some other days its rather easy to say that but then think of the consequences pls.think of it if you are the one being pangseh if you are in my shoes..this is not the 1st time......maybe our friendship is just not that important to you not worth the trust ...... dammm that makes me so sick n tired everytime have to make up for this......i m there whenever you call up , there whenever you needed me , there whenever you have problemes but wat abt you.......i could recall the last time i when i have problems ....wat you said.... oh i need to slp early .......thats the kind of friends i need or i deserve ... maybe i juz too stupid to have given in so much to a friend....the sms really boil me up guess thats shows how much im as a friend in your heart......i can onli say nice friends can also boil nice friends can also get fed up.........i juz dont know wat to say at times really.......y must you ppl treat me this way ......perhaps i juz not important like wat i say i m juz a nobody in your lifes ......nobody i hate whenever i have to write all this things on my blogs i juz spoils my days during work .......its not that now adays i m getting more n more mood swings .....its juz due to all this problem by you ppl, you ppl who call yourself so call FRIENDS ......si mi lan jiao sia really made me boil .......izzit that difficult to juz come out for a dinner or something .......dont think you even know how i feel cause you dont even know i have a blog right i guess so ....... or should it be so .........you are really the selfish kind really so sad to say that >:( i m juz too tired...boil up to entertain your answers pal........y must i alway be the one, be the one kanaing all this y Y why....instead of comparing how is your working life can you as least show concern about mine....i mean thats rather wat i wan to hear rather then how hectic your life is compared to mine....... i do mine becos i dont have no choice n i m doing something i dont know like which is so much different from yours so y compare with me ? .......=.= our meetings are wats made me go on with work wat make look forward after each day but wat i get in the end ..................so many friends tell me the same thing........one of my dearest friend can simply tell me this "not i never msg you juz that i got nthing to talk to you" .........and that really hurt me really ............my jiejie tell me oh ya how are guys how are guys how screw up can guys then......wat you expect me to say then .....i juz simply cant be bothered to argue back things they are saying cause they juz think for the priority of gals and from their point of view....gals are alway right wat the kind of concepts is that.....i guess i m juz thinking the other way round...not that guys are right but at least its qual .......they say its alright for a gal to be late but not a guy....so wat ...does that give you GIRLS have the FUCKing privilage to be damm Fucking late ...........whenever i alway meet guys i m the one late sometimes but then when i meet gals they are the ones always late so wats the FUcking logic behind all this when gal can be late but not guys ....... i dont see the connection=.= ...you can say i m emotional you can say i m sensitive .....wat about you ppl.....i guess maybe or perhaps i m but then i tried to control it .......i tried very hard this time but i cant really cant ......(Fucking Retarded Idiotic Erotic Nothingness Deceiving Selfish) ppl this is wat you called F.R.I.E.N.D.S................. :/ :/ :/.............................. excuse are alway reasons of covering your own fualt ..........
|sMaRtIe_SmArTiE| 4:30 PM|
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