Wednesday, July 20, 2005
came back after a few days of rest not much time to update my things as well as my blog....this few days have to draggy for me ......emotionally unstable nick of the weeks guess i changning to be damm bloody mood now adays many things was no as nice this sem thougth there were some bits n pierces of nice things but that didnt make up for the lousy shit i've gotten......miserable guy i m....tired of thinking .....offering nice things to ppl but dont get back anything maybe i shouldnt expect anything back.....days by days bad things have eat up my enegry...making me lost trust in things even myself ....i start to wonder if i m really doing fine thought i tell ppl "ya i m alright " or "ya i m fine" its juz makes me feel miserable.....somebody told me this a few days ago XXXXX said :"hey you are too sensittive le la " maybe i m...im juz too sensitive ba think too much maybe.....wo jiu shi zhe yang de......maybe thats wat make me sooo damm tired about things......Questions alway pop up in my mind should i alway be there went my friends need me cause they are alway not there when i need them.....maybe the presence of me is juz nth...i juz a nobody....nobody needs me n i need nobody..guess need to learn everything from young again how to be just think like a child a young child. How i wish i m still in sec sch so many things are so nice everyone juz cares for you everyday asking you..are you alright ? The outside is too cruel for many facts to be accepted hard to face some problems at times hard to know facts ...ssometimes the truth leads to sadnesss and misery......facing the fact is more difficult that anything.......starting to lose trust in ppl i know ppl i m so close to ppl who i like ppl who are nice to me ppl everywhere......dont feel like writing where i go wat i do this few days maybe i m juz writing something for myself to release all wat i m thinking maybe its juz wat i feel at the moment of time ........its been long since i last written so much....i really dont know who to trust now feels so lost so lost sooo dammm lost......dOtZ juz wann tell someone something .......i hate you really hate you .........:( *screamzzzzZZZZZZZZ*


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