Monday, June 20, 2005
friends who are seeing this post currently....its 7 20 am in the morning 21 of june its really time that i think im tired really tired alrdy in the morning i woke up with the feeling of nothing juz changing going to work tired n thinking meaningless..... many things to do many many tings to do many things happened many many things happened....i juz have the feeling the no one is cares for what i m thinking .... what the point telling everyone how i feel it doesnt matter really how i feel. i juz dont feel like caring anything anymore......nothing at the moment i find theres a point ...nothing totally..life has sucked since the date i started my attachment until now nothing has seems to go right everything seems to go as a way you never wanted it to be and having so much problem around i m really tired....tired of so many things.....helping ppl around , asking ppl to go out .......taking the trouble to ask ppl how are they and talk to them nicely runing some club.......in the end wat i get ...nothing really nothing but juz tiredness its alway so easy to tell me hey very fast one dont think so much stay happy ....really its very easy to say that but who know HOW I M FEELING now ..... who ????? you are not me so dont tell this kind of shit saying oh yea i know how you feel dont worry everything well turn out fine dammzz ......life have never been that "good" everything seems to be planned from the starting of the attachment.......wat the fuck ish wrong if you see the point of what i m talking there then i guess you juz thinking wat the fuck ish wrong with this guy man .... i think me myself also dont know anything.....sometimes i dont even know wat i want wat i m thinking so how can you know wat i m thinking ? i guess everyone juz think picking up with my life ish easy then.... aT time when i need you (friends) where are you.....now i really dont see a point of having so much friends ....really dont see apoint.....think i shall stop here...dont really know when i am gona write or update my blog again but dont think its gona be there soon from now.... guess i need some pack up of some feelings.............
emotionally , mentally & phyically tired guy..............................:/


|sMaRtIe_SmArTiE| 4:22 PM|

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